her lyfe

Please get your ass off from my life. Thanks

2009-07-27T12:28:00.002+08:00

I don't understand how could it happen this way.
I am too tired what is right and wrong.

Is it wrong for me to spent the time alone with you,
Is it wrong for me to be with you in the daylight,
I am not like others because they could just meet their hubby anytime they one.
Seriously, anytime which they plan. I could only meet him in the daylight.
I have to sneak out just to see you, I have to lie my way thru just to be with you.
But all I got was getting irritated. And some can just go their way thru without understanding the situation.

Everyone or atleast 'YOU' have the fucking freedom to go out late nite staying all day with your boyfriend.
I don't okay, 'YOU' have the pleasure to meet your boyfriend at least a few times a week, and I have to squeeze eveytime just to see him because of our tight schedule. How I wish I could be with you, but I couldnt.
How I wish time will be longer so I can meet him, and meet my friend and satisfy everyone needs.

BIG smile people

2009-02-16T23:28:00.003+08:00

thanks sayang for the food and to trouble you to sent me home
I appreciate it &&&&
I love you! hees

Okay, I will start blogging starting from today.
Since i did not blog for a very long time....
Hees. Finally, I am attached to him
happy2 selalu lah gitu.

I am working again tomorrow.
I really cannot wait for this weekend.
hees. Let me rest!!

Anyway, I was super2 stress on week of valentine.
I got lot to prepare and lot of things to do.
But finally, my hard work pay off..

I was super stress at last minute that things just screw up.
Stress sehh...
I felt like crying when I am in the cabal car.
But at the end of the day.
I walk away with a BIG smile on my face. =))

It's wednesday, holiday preety please =))

2008-12-10T14:26:00.005+08:00

So, I fulfill for my 2nd day.
Although we try so hard. but ended up suck.
hahas...
never mind about that.

Anyway, went down for first break with Jill
Jill went up the hill =))
we took picture on the first meeting. haas

So long. I need to catch up alot with meow.
Another day together for break =))
=D

Coffee shop with 4 ladies =))

Meow I miss you much

Okay, I am super sleepy.
As I was busily surfing the net. msn with ina =))
And try to make you say something.
But ended up you act blur.
I can't be sorry for it.
But its my choice. Whether to give you a chance.
I think we came from different world.
You yourself say it.though you didn't state it was me.
I know everything.

p/s: i am still waiting.

skip again?

2008-12-10T00:20:00.004+08:00

It's been so long since I last blog.
I skipped school for the last 3 days last week.
Omg, I going to be dead soon. =((
tis week i am going to be a good yana

The Friday skipping school. All were busy watching video.

girls who cabot =))

Wednesday VB sick
Went outt with NAz and Ina to shop!!

I kind of irritated seeing his piercing.

Ina & yana

Kfc lunch anyone?

Someone is really angry about it.
I was really down when someone say,
I wanna change her, before she is spoilt.
When the first time I see her she was a nice girl.

When she is attached to yut she is a lil spoilt.
After her break up things become worst.
I just do things that makes me feel happy.
Make my life more worth it, than waiting and even recall about you.

I simply love working because my mind wasn't thinking about stuff which i usually do.
I have fun outside to shisha, spend time with friends and do some shopping or catching up a movie.
I know whatever you say in the sms was all about me. As someone have told me.
I was hurt when i hurt that I change from good to bad.
Saying that you want to take care of me before I am spoilt!

Guess what, if I don't have fun now? when again.
Is not like I am out doing something really bad. Which is like a pest to the society.
It go out just to have fun, laugh and even stay happy.

Jessica Mauboy
Been Waiting
(Verse 1)
We've been friends for so long, I can't deny,
These feelings are so strong I keep hot inside,
Wanna tell you but I can't find the words to say,
So afraid if I do things will never be the same,
I gotta work it out, times really running out,
Don't know what to do but I know I gotta say it now,
Don't wanna loose and friend but why should I pretend,
That I don't love you when I've waited so long,

(Chorus)
(So long) been waiting (so long) been waiting (so long)
I can't hold it back cause I've been waiting so long,
Been waiting (so long) been waiting (so long)
Been waiting (so long) I've been waiting so long,
I've been trying to tell ya, tell ya,
That we should be together, everyday,
Boy you're giving me something, something, oh
And I'm crazy in love with all of you, you
Boy you're giving me something, something, something
Something, something, something, something, something

(Verse 2)
When you come to me and say some other girl has broke your heart once again,
Will you every learn, all this time I've been patiently,
Hoping that you would notice me, you need to know that I've been waiting so long,

(Chorus x2)

live, love & laugh

2008-11-30T21:45:00.004+08:00

Friday night was fun =))
That was a great weekend.
So, I went to closing bash with the dunges and Hussain, Faizal, Fai and Faiz was with us
I sat beside faiz and zuzu so, halfway through the concert we were bored.
Me and Faiz started to make stupid faces and he basically laugh.
I really like to see him smile and showing his white teeth =D

So, than I was excited again because my friend told me we wanted to go Shisha.
I wanted to follow badly, but I got doubt what if they wanted to go home.
But ended up with 14 of us =))
It was fun. I enjoy myself very much.
Do bitch again about what happen in the work place. Haha
Since we cannot work often, let’s plan for another outing can =))
Whee..

Ina infront and kamillya behind =))

The cup is super cute lahh =))

Nazleay matrep =))
he say he was bored at home. so i told hym.
Come down and follow us as they plan to shisha.
Ended up he doesn't shisha =/ haha
But Kamillyah have chance to sayang2 him. kentot!

Oyo is my manager.
And he gave $50 to pay for the bill =))
anyway, he's a phillipinos. haha

It's midnight..

Super happy that our pay is OUT!

MAtrep adrian is goin back to his country =))

So we bring him to smoke shisha also

I going to miss him

THE GIRLS

Zach efron cannot make it & EMMA =))

They are still love people =))

faiz & yana =))

happy mode. haahas

Our friday night =)

Old pics already

I think he look preety good here. hees.

So, I have to miss euu tis weekend again.

While you are enjoying your weekend goin for gig.

imy

2008-11-28T14:42:00.002+08:00

Keda kopi with dunges =))

I miss diana =))

Now I do not know if I am looking forward for my holiday.
Maybe, YAH! So that I can get out of all that shit from school that I go through everyday
However, Bangkok? How is it going to happen when there is issue happening there?
I just wish to get out of here, but I can’t right now.
I hope it end before my holiday.

Syakil, our dream to come true is so freaking difficult.
=(( How long more should I wait. Argh…
I am so disappointed.

Anyway, I won’t see Adrian anymore.
He’s Philippines punya!!
We are going to miss you lah!!!
You are fun to work with. So happy and cheery every single day.
Even if you are tired you are still the one who motivates us.

Amalina =))

Adrian!! =))

Isma =))

Wohoo!! I going to watch concert today.
=)) hoping I will have fun.
I still don’t know what my mum really angry about?
She just want me to stay at home is it?

She told me not to make use of the freedom.
Okay, I told my father I am working..
Than you say.. Don’t work if you cannot wake up.
Now I don’t know if you want to gain trust or you want me to stay at home?
Ergh. Shit happen.

Most sweetest person

2008-11-26T23:50:00.003+08:00

There are so many things you have done to me.
How should I every repay YOU ?

YOU really gave me hope whenever I fall.
YOU played and sing for me when I am heartbroken.
YOU make me feel that YOU are someone I can rely on.
Whenever I am down YOU will always be there.
The morning message and saying I am there to always make you happy.
That was one of the message YOU gave when I was heartbroken.

YOU never care if anyone is jealous of us.
YOU told me let them be
I really appreciate someone like YOU
YOU are the sweetest person on EARTH?

Happy bthday RAKINAHH!!

2008-11-23T03:49:00.005+08:00

SHISHA - ing on the sunday
full of gerekness.
It's the continue of INA bthday plus celebrating MYRA belated
=)) hope euu enjoy urself!
As I did.. Whee..
I wish for another round okayy =))
hope euu lik the picss

I am super tired today & it’s all because of din
He is a psycho and an idiot too.
He brings me to the store room and spray Co2 towards me.
But I win because he was pinch and he complains.
It was really tiring because I was running around catching him. Hmm..

Okay so I was freaking boring at home. I saw Ina online and I ask her to meet me at 515.
However she reach earlier and I was already on the way to the MRT.
So , I went to shop awhile to get my stuff and reach work at about 620

Okay it was stooped because we just continue whatever they are doing.
Than we find out that we got no more SWEET POPCORN and we got a lot of salty popcorn.
Midnight Strikes and Ina wasn’t at her counter because she was running away from us
However at 3 hahaha.. Its time to subo her…
All because Syakil wanted to pass Wan ice mountain and he throws it to him.
But Wan could not catch it and the bottle burst
Than din took the bottle & walks towards me.
Suddenly he poured the water to Ina
I had fun.
It makes me stop thinking
So, I hope tomorrow to.
=))

He's the LEGEND?

tak dpt ah.

Wa are the concess staff =))

it was at 2am

& still we have lot's of energy

His the most coolest guy

Liyana & Syakil

This guy is my good guy :))

he was super sad bcos I didn't reply him.

So, now when I msg him he doesn't wanna reply

sad. haha

Happy Bthdae RAKINAH!!!
I love euu my friend. Sorry we did not talk to you because is just our plan.
HAHAH.. You were super sad and you went off to play game
However, we all still love you okay darling.
Let’s have fun together again tomorrow.
So lucky to have us for our bthdae right.!!
Wee.. I JUST WISH YOU can throw ur pass away
You just keep thinking about it. Don’t bother everything going to be fine.
You don’t need someone who is not worth it.
Maybe is not the time. =))

Basah kene sabo??!!

hahaha

Sweet and sour? maybe.

2008-11-22T15:31:00.003+08:00

She really know how to act it out.

But finally she revel it to me!! haha

kentot.

It was fun working with fit..

We really had fun and serious fun!

And certain secret that I told her..

There was ne time where there is a few people queing up at another counter.

I try so hard to call the customer but ended up no one came -.-

SInce fit was not standing at counter she help me to tell the customer to go to my counter

Guess I was too short for the customer to notice.

And my manager(din) and fit laughed!!

I was super sad when I wasn't there to see them cut cake.

But nvm I got to serve the customer since its the few of us left.

Than when it's 12am it was zul birthday, we wanted to sing

Still our plan failed. So Syazwan drag him to the back. And yahh!!!

Sabo time.. hahaha.. Pity you! but nvm its once in a lifetime. nyehahaha

Birthday boy kene sabo!! dgn telurr!!

This is the egg which is on the floor

Our kitchen is in real mess

he gets dirty and he hug someone =))

I think i miss you.

& i hope you know who you are.

)):

Sorry =((

2008-11-20T14:58:00.003+08:00

I getting bored. Mummy is angry =((

All because that I do not reach home early

However, is really not because I went out.

I think if i going anywahere I should inform her.

My fault. Sorry mum.

Haing practice yesterday.

I am super tired as the day before i finish my work at 1a.m.

seriously, I could not concentrate at all.

hmm.. but its okay!

next week than I will be much more concentrative.

Practice tiring =((

and we really sweat alot.

pity faiz because he is like bathing.. hahha

2008-11-19T13:32:00.003+08:00

Happy 18th Bthday Liyana

tis gurl here has been there for me since she was sec 2
I have great times with her. =))
She is the best gurl ever in my life and I think i missed her.
Because we aren't that close as we are the previously.

All because of our hectic scheldue in school.
And you just ended ur 'o' level.
I hope all ur wish come true =))
You had one and euu want to pursue it.

Seriously, I wish for just the three of us to go out again.
And another day like the gossips gurl.
=))
I miss those fun time with euu.. =))

we have our new print taken and all our belo2 faces.
See each other for almost everyday
In band? being an SL.. what a very tough job.
See each other complaint every single day.

Oh how i wish i could turn back time.
We three never car whoever hate us. Jealous.. hahha
and still some hate tagger wanna show how wrong nana when she is in sec 1 or 2?
And i still think they are jealous.
Because whatever it is we are still together.

Superr dupper

2008-11-16T00:22:00.004+08:00

Faiz, HAPPY 17 bthday to you!!!

you have been the greatest person for me

& you have been there for me all this while

I was heart broken the other day

and you did something very sweet.

I wasn't okay.

early in the morning you text me.

And ask are you okay?

You say this to me

that I am here to make you happy =))

How should i ever repay your kindness??

Best person ever =))

Tiring =((

2008-11-14T10:34:00.003+08:00

Okie. I think it is a very tiring week tis week.
I still have no rest in the weekend.
Celebrating someone bthdae on Saturday.
Working on the Fri & Sun

I wish I could have more rest next week.
Atleast I can work on weekdays.
Whee!!!
I just wish to meet the baby girls on the weekend. =))

Late for school today.
Really have tis congro feeling. haha.
And yah have tis message from someone.
Telling me that he could not go off over the weekend
as he lost something -.-
I don't know whether to pity or hmm..
Since your own brother say.
Wanna let you feel how life is in there.
& ask you to learn the hard way.
I cannot say anything else..

This fren of mine visited me at work.
Wanted to eat with him
But than I was eating at the kitchen
He wanted to take photo so much
Because I have to many pictures in my msn.
Anyway, pls come to work okayy =))
Whee... TGC need you. haha. Just kidding.

Yana & Zach. =))

I am trying to understand everything that happen.

I just don't wish to be hurt anymore.

freak. =(

2008-11-13T14:04:00.002+08:00

I wanna go shop for clothes.

Haiyoo.. I miss shopping.

I only can do it after my trip. Freak!!

=((

Anyway, I just feel like giving up.

However I am just going with the flow.

Dun ask me what I am talking about

because no one will understand.

I am not expeting so much.

But just happy for wat I have right now.

Because now I feel so different.

I dun know. Just have this stoopid instinct.

Oh yahh, tiring week.

Watching concert, re-plug and MUSE

muse was great =))

I know people kind of weird to talk to with after some misunderstanding and all.

but whatever I expect wasn't so much.

Atleast I realise my mistake and you forgive I am okay with it.

HOw long more should we avoid.

We have to se each other even if we don't want to.

And even I wasn't in the situation. but guess I was affected.

Whatever lah..

The more I step into it, the worst I will get.

Working tomorrow!! whee... =))

I miss you so

2008-11-09T22:27:00.002+08:00

I basically dun understand why the hell people should make our lyfe freaking hard.
We did apologise and asked to wait as we have to check.
I just think you freaking yaya. & you wasn't making sense at all
You just did it for your own benefit??
& i dont understand why people just keep listening to him.
Even though it wasn't our mistake.

The next day, you were freaking coward!!
Since he was inside. you don't even there to mess up! haha..
I just make sure you galfren KENE MAIN infront of the boifren. F*rk.
super fustrated. Make my lyfe freaking hard.

Next, I just miss you alot.
Whenever I listen to the song, it reminds me of you. =))
i miss you Sooo!!
I can see you soon.. yeah!!
but seriously, I was shock when my cousin told me that.
haha.. you malibok!

Performance..

2008-11-05T00:02:00.008+08:00

Performance was really a great big success for us =))
I am so love todays performance lar..
Although there is tiny2 thing stuck down there.
But overall was full of fun!!!

So, I am really happy for everything that is done.
Fit came down to watch me.
And me and friends are coming to support you at TRCC on next thursday okie
See you there =))

i SERIOUSLY love today make up.
I usually hate freaking thick make up.
But I love today. done by NISA and EMMA and FIKA..
thanks to you..

I would also like to thanks to all the senior and SYAZ..
who have been there helping us.
We really appreciate you guys alots..
I will update more picture soon. Okayy..

Exhausted

2008-11-04T10:51:00.003+08:00

I don't know what will happen next.

Life is full of suprises for me.

I am just going on with the flow,

Hopefully I will get my happiness.

I was totally restless and pissed by yesterday.

All because of the last minute thing.

I just hope everthing turn out fine today.

But even there is something going wrong

Just move on okay =))

I was super duper late today.

Luckily, Abah at home to send me to school

I really could not wake up.

Super duper tired!!

I just wish to get my rest.

Hopefully it will be tomorrow

since I am vising Mak and Abah.

I totally missed them.

I must see them,

before they going to haji.

tired!

2008-11-02T13:58:00.004+08:00

I feel that life is going very fast for me.

Everything goes too fast.

Previously you were in school

We spending time together.

But now, you are going to start a family already?

I usually do not believe in what people say,

till I discovered it on myself.

I guess I saw it myself,

Hope you love your new life now okay.

I think i miss you as a friend.

Friday rehearsal was great

our last run through was an improvement

base on our tempo.

So, hopefully everything will be great on tues =))

Tomorrow going to be another run.

Hope nothing goes wrong aite. dunges lovee

After school, I met ina, naz and sham.

Wohoo.. Shopping round and round mustafa.

Get Microphone because my laptop could not be used.. ergh

Than, we went to slack. and enjoying ourselve. haha

=))

Went off around 2 in the morningg..

Yesterday, before I went to work.

Went out to watch coffin =))

I dun really watch ghost story,

So i feel shock some of the time. haha

I have a great time with you!!

nyehaha..

Lastly, Workingg.. yuckss!

It was gala and I tot everything going to be enjoyable.

Ended up we stand doing nothing for 2 hours. great!!

But I was being bullied larr =))

Wrestling with all the concession closing staff!

Great holiday =))

2008-10-28T16:33:00.005+08:00

Great weekend for me with my dear frenss.

So friday, I was skipping skul again :( and went to meet hazli afta work.

Watching movie with him. Afta that I went down and meet his fren.

Okie larr the adik is full of jokes. And I wasn't in my mood after that as I wanna everything to stop. And I confessed to him. So he say lets just be friend. Okie, So fren will it be.

Next sat night wated to go out with faiz and gang. So went to leave early from work. But than, thanks for serener my hp to my manager, I didn't notice that faiz told me that he is sick.

Urghh.. Wat the hell.. So, I got no other destination. So it is home swit home.

Sunday was Kind of fun. Haha.. I let my misses go. talking to him face to face. But more to a normal fren while I was waiting for my movie to start and for that farouk who was late to come.

Haha.. So, i did enjoy my day on Sunday with my colleagues =))

And monday, HOlidayy!! like finally lah.. So went to watch RDP busking.. They were really good people.. I was damn hungry a that point of time as Michael our chef cooking were yuckss and his serving is lil!! urghh.. So, I bought Sandwich with faiz.. follow them window shopping for awhile and than went home..

So, while waching them busking it was so funn as we did move for awhile till there is one drunken man. f*rk.. So I went closer to the back as I was really afraid of that stoppid man. And the whole group split!! Luckily it was only two to three song left.

Nite chatting with him. And he sent me tis. So, find out what he mean. =))

Cause even if euu knoe the answer I wont tell euu it is right.. nyehaha..

Should I react or response?

2008-10-25T22:30:00.006+08:00

I think life is getting harder for me these days. I know nothing is easy in life, but then why the hell should I face this stupid situation? Should I just go and let them be happy, Or should I stay and give him happiness? But what credits do I get from doing that? Won’t I be feeling worst instead? Though eu don’t lie, but the fact is the truth really hurts.. Nabei!! I just wish it will go.
I still do not know how I should really react in the situation. Maybe I should just take my step and walk away… But I going to miss you badly!!!!!!!! I don’t know what to do!! I hate this kind of feeling which I gotten like 5678909876578987656789 times!!

Okay, La dunges desperately waiting for my post. Let me comment all of you instead =)) 11 girls & loves..

· Izzah - Our incharge, strong energetic but high pitch and very loud. Better get away or she will bite.
· Esha - The one who lead us for the next and the next groove. She is hyper usually busy on the phone. TTM!!
· Iffah - Funny tone – Ehk sial ah!!!
· Zuzu - Snort!! Happy go lucky, bangra partner. Simpan ankk tu ehkk..
· Fika - SUrdo semangat!!! And quiet.
· Nisa - The full concentration on surdo.. =))
· Amni - So popular with the MISS beautician
· Dura - When she is with us, everyone will knoe.. Because of your laugh.
· Imah - Syiok.. sendiri.. =)) love too rape people..
· Safiah - Hip hopper?? Happy go lucky??

And yeahh.. =)) thanks to everyone helping each other. Hope our performance is a successful one okay…

In the buss

Tis is what i called "love"

Anyway, hari raya with the dunges was fun. =)) Sorry faiz.. we buy sepasang but nvr wear together.. -.- hehe.. Next year okay?!? We book the colour first since its only 333 days more.. haha.. Lama tu!!!
I heard stories from Faiz yesterday which make me laugh!! And thanks to you who is such a dear. Who cares for me like for the 78123456765432

Faizz =))

LA dunges. and euu =)

2008-10-23T23:54:00.002+08:00

To all the 10 babies. Maybe I am not there sometimes out with euu all for lunch.
And sort kind of reasons. but firstly, i would like to apologise any wrong doing..
Since it is still hari raya =)) haha.. Okie.. but seriously, if I make euu feel irritated or anything,
pls fogive me.. I goin to miss eu as DUNGESss.. but still cann see euu guys at B.E. =))

Anyway, I just wanna say that I just want euu to be as happie as possible. I can't bare too see euu in darkness as when I hear the problem came I just feel like helping. Maybe, I can'tbe the one helping wit ur needs but I should be able and wanting to see euu smile. I just wish to see the smile on ur face.

Missingg euu peoplee

2008-10-18T14:30:00.003+08:00

Sorry i hv been busy with 34567890987654345678987654 things. So, b.e. was okie and funn as i have mood to turn up for practice already and I am a little more motivated to go to school. Not only thatt I have to work for more money.. Haiyyoo!!

10 most people to missed

Aisyah i have not meet her for quite sometimes
Liyana.. mysecondary skul mates.
Farhanah.. my secondary skul mates too...
Faiz!!! eventhough i meet euu at b.e. there is no fun2 thing anymore =((
Rakinah my close colleagues
My mak and abah angkat
Diana!!! my school mate, loves hangging out with her
My old class mate in sec!!!! especially to beverly, andy, pei yong
E36h. Bay, von, rizal, raja
freaky hazli... cn i lykee miss euu?? nyehaha

Once I am free I wanna date wiff all of them for sure!!! haha.. hari raya outing witthh the colleagues was just FUN and Tyring.. Van dia Membakar seyy.. bodoh nye van..

enjoy!!!

I am thankful to you

2008-10-03T13:54:00.005+08:00

I having so much fun tiss few daes.. Hmm.. Firstly, hari raya is the best dae for me. Although I woke up at 2 AND even hari raya is not as meriah as last tyme. I feel like having fun. So went to eat whatever i like.. nyehahahaha...

Oh yahh.. wanted to tell someone. Although euu really make me think through and change my mind not to look back. EUu give hope and after that leave i will still be thankful to euu because I appreciate the way euu give ur advice and even though euu left is something that happen in life. =)) NYehahhaa..

OKiee.. so yesterday, I woke up super duper late and do not went to skul. However, I went to watch house bunny with imah(the hottie), safiah(the hip hopper), wan(??), faiz(the rude??). Okie yah.. So super gerek watching movie and than went to cotton on with the gals.. Gerek seh.. I love shopping and went out with the gerls. And now i miss my baby gals even more. nyehahaha.. I wish to mit yana and nana soon!!! very soon. See pics that were taken okie..

Hari Raya.. So excited!! whee

2008-09-30T19:57:00.005+08:00

Firstly, I would like to say Selamat Hari Raya friends =))

Kalau ade silap dan salah harap kwn2 sume memaafkan saye okie

Kalau ade terkasar bahase ke, tersinggung hati ke..

Selamat hari raya maaf zahir batin kwn!!

Okie. lets start, hmm i just havemy hair cut!!

i feel so weird ith my short hair. hope it look okieto others..

Dun call me helmet anymore okiee.. nyehehe..

Yah!! i had so much fun yesterdae larr..

Faiz invite me to cabOoot Oon that dae. So yahh!!

I am so tired, so i took a longer slip than usual and than wOooshhh...to town.

there was Banana faiz and zuzu. after that wan came and meet us up. Whhee..

Gerek giler.. and we fall asleep after that when we are on our way to school.

As we have our traning at 5pm.. though we are tired. we doesnt really show..

And somore our bangra. I dance like org giler seh, with zuzu accompany me.

Group photo =))

Jump people!! featuring Faiz, Wan, Me

Me, ZUzu, Faiz!! Jumpshot.

I manage to slap fai. Nyehaha.. And i also manage to pinch him. bcos he keep disturbing me.

Ohhh.. i got such a caring fren. I tot he was the one who went off without saying goodbye.

and ended up he say that i tot euu are going to slack with us.

He say i never even say goodbye or message him. hmm.. I am sorry kay!!!

Euu such a great fren larr faiz!!

Super duper good fren.

Meet faiz!! Super gOod fren

Shadow of us..

I keep thinking how is it goin to be like tmrw. as it is HARI RAYA!!

and i also thingking bout fridae nite at work till 3 am in the morning.

And reporting back at skul at 630 am. Urrgghhh.. Hope i can make it..

pls go away

2008-09-25T22:44:00.004+08:00

Everyday I wish for someone like euu but i dun think i will ever came thru. they were asking me shuld i give a second chance but people i have to move on. I knoe something like tis will happen in life and hope to see him deseve a second chance. If Iwere meant to be with him than I am meant to be.. I just believe in fate and hope there is really someone better for me to be with. Though we have to face thru up's and down's in a relationship, I dun think I shuld face tht kind of situation for almost every single dae in my life. I am really sick of relationship.

I dun mind having frens around me. Even if it guys!! WHY IS IT REALLY WRONG? and really f*ck euu people who keep criticising me behind my back. I am not very intimate with them okie. I am just their frens. Why are euu all so jealous. If euu want them than go ahead!! I AM NOT JEALOUS OR ANYTHING. kind of pissed off okie.. I am also still with my galfrens what in skul or anywhere else like work!!

Went out with rakinah on MON.. it was funn and we buke at pizza hut!!! i ate bake pasta..

Happie bthdae NANA

2008-09-21T01:20:00.004+08:00

Happy bthdae nana syg.

da legal seh =))

hope ur wishes come true.

and hope euu like the galfrens outting together

i was working in the morning and it is really freaking tiring. Working in the morning for tmrw also. But it's fun working with all gerls. usually i am the only girl however todae.. there's only a guy!! haha.. than gett out of the place by 530. meeting yana first!! nana was late larr.. so we went to secret receipe. my last minute gift!! and very2 last minute. serious!! so yana top up 80 cent for me and heading to BK to have our breakfast!! buke burger dok.

So after chatting and i can't stop munching at tat part of time. No wonder i getting fatter each day.. hahss. so we went to celebrate her bthdae at taka garden. Slack there for awhileand picture is being taken.. i kinda miss euu guys larr.. remeber bout all the stoopid things in our secondary skul. haha.. so freaking funni and childish too!!

Next we were sneaking in to the apartment behind wisma. HAHA.. slack at the swimming pool. taken pics there. didn't tok much but pictures is being taken.. okiee.. gudnite!!

swimming pool!!!

babies..

Yana push me.. ohh yana aku tengah pakai skirt.. but nvm..

Sorry

2008-09-20T00:34:00.003+08:00

Life isn't that boriiing after all.. i have to face all kind of shit. No matter how much euu try not too.. Or euu even try ur best to get with any kind of shit, it will still happen. I just dun wanna be hurt anymore, trying my best to forget eveything shit that happen to me. I still get it over with. It is still in my head and is stuck. I feel like shooting my head just to make this pain go away. People making me happy almost everydae but memories wont go awae that fast. Pls, go awae. I dunn wanna be hurt anymore. Frustration towards euu is still with me. Pls forgive all my mistake and go away.. dun come back. I dun wish for ur presence.

I remeber someone told me this. love on its own is crazy. If it isn't crazy, why is it soo difficult to find ur true love. Cheyy, he sae like one grown up. Ok but i kinda of belief his own personal logic. And realli i am not falling for anyone rite now. Not because of wat he sae.. But trying to make myslef get almost 80% of the paaast goes.

Ohh.. la dunges hope the confident is there. Goin to upload pic once is ready ok. Anyway, i love them. A piece of advice, be confident, spirit and hyper.. okiee goo!! i think after the song done up. we are kind of okayy.. jer ahh.. haha. remeber our motto!! yeah... Faiz last ehkk.. takmo cabot lagy tau!! erghh..

okie nite.
=))

i wann my restt pls

2008-09-17T00:26:00.005+08:00

Hey peepss.. i was super duper tired lately. I duno wat i have done benefits me.. but i dun really think it benefits the other party. And suddenly his just not there anymore.. Haha.. I just told eu wat i feel but i really dun wana turn ur relationship worst bcos of me. I shuld go away from euu.. Euu still can contact me like euu did but i think euu shuld know ur limits. thanks. sorry for that once again.. If euu ever read my blog bfor than it will be great..

hahas.. k back to our daily skul life.. life have been great!! seriously, hehe.. bthdae week was great. And again no free daes for tis wk.. except todae. I rush home after skul and than go to bed!! haha.. i was seriously super duper tired.. I can't even wake myself up. End up muqsit msg me.. asking me where i am.. So, i sae i just woke up.. hahha.. dumb!!!

thurs - geylang with collegues

fri - outing buke and bthdae celebration

sat - work
sun - home swit home

mon - geylang with some b.e. members

tues - home swit home..

yeah!!!

i seriously can't wait to chill at home for holidaes.. i can't stand it anymore. I want my sleep, my tv, frens!! and work.. okie.. see the pics..

tis is from the geylang outing..

E36H the clan is still love by me

though i always can't make it for outings.. hmm

The cabot daee on fridaee =))

sleppy on tat dae.

kind of boringg.. hahss

gelap nyee

sadness

2008-09-13T14:22:00.003+08:00

i duno why, but i think everything going fine..
i wish him all the best.. his a soljer boy now.. haha!!
i am sad on my bthdae as his gone. but think back.. eh!! wake up larr yana.. his gone doesnt mean i lost everything.
So on my bthdae having ifftar with my colleagues =)) at geylang..
the next day again.. skip skul. so graded "x"..
wanted to went out but changed of planned, so yah!!
didn't went for shopping.. i wish to shop again..
anyway see all the picss aite.. the skip skul and the bthdae..
oh yahh still have somore pics during the break time.. but havent get those pics..

i will update the picss soon when the pic uploader is okiee =))
i have to do the quiz and i promise faiz..
so the people who is being tag.. do the quizz for me at ur blogg aitee =))
love people

1. The person who tag you is?
~ Faiz2.

Your relationship with him/her is?
~ My friend.. kind of close.. =))

3. Your five impressions of him/her?
~ nice, cute, irritating, gay, friendly

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
~ tak memorable nak mampos.

5. The most memorable thing he/she had said to you?
~ I am a nice frend =))

6.If he/she become your lover, you will?
~ no.. she is betta with “A” euu shuld knoe urself!!! =))

7. If he/she become your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be?
~ no.. and I dun think we will

8.If he/she become your enemy, you will?
~ I dun want to be hiss enemy, I am serious!!

9.If he/she become your enemy, the reason will be?
~ because he don’t find me good anymore =((

10. The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is.
~ make both of us as happie as possible

11. Your overall impression of him/her is.
~ simplicity and nice

12. How you think people around you will feel about you?
~ I duno. Ask them to tell me..

13. The characters you love of yourself are.
~ happy as always

14.On the contrary, the characteristics you hate most about yourself are?
~ oh no. I can’t grow anymore

15. The most ideal person you want to be is.
~ be myself!!!!

16. For people that care and like you, say something to them.
~ I love all of euu man..
17. Pass this quiz to 10 persons that you wished to know how they feel about you pass to people that have blog only.
1.faizz
2.aisyah
3.Farhanah
4.Shantni
5.Zuzu
6. Esha
7.Rafika
8.Esha
9.Muqsit
10.Keka

18.Who is no.6 having relationship with?
~ She only have teman tapi mesra
19. Is no.9 a male or female?
~ a Male
20. If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
~ they are both galss
21. What is no.2 studying about?
~ n level =))
22. When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
~ oh Wednesday!!
23. What kind of music band does no.8 like?
~ Ask her urself lah..
24. Does no.1 have any siblings?
- I forgot!! Bad frenn..
25. Will you woo no.3?
~ wont!!
26. How about no.7?
~ NOT even also
27. Is no.4 single?
~ yessa
28. What is the surname of no.5?
~ dun hav
29.What’s the hobby of no.10?
~ chill out with fren!!

O.o. enjoying myself again

2008-09-09T20:51:00.005+08:00

hmm.. yesterdae was fun. out wit la dunges lerr.. it was the best dae. i skipped skul and someone were angry over it but i dun care =)) hahas. So we went to TC and
watch the sassy girl. The story line were like superduper swit sak!! At that point of time is only me, dura, nisa, izzah and safiah. Safiah and me atleast attend the first meeting. hahss. And acctually todae i didn't went for 3rd meeting okie. So yah, it was super duper touching that i wanted to cry but okie i tried and make myself not too!!

So, after that went to plaza Singapura and to town are. Slacking there than we meet esha and fika. We proceed to far east and went for buke for some of them. It was really our lucky day. Seriously, firstly, we want to change places as there are not many choice in the shop. So we went across and Safiah told us.. ehh i saw money!!!! okie.. and really it was 50 buck. aper lagy sume enjoy argh sak.. Than we tot of not going to ben and jerry's bcos some of them were lack of cash. ended up we can go. So when back to TC and went tp Ben and Jerry's lahh.hahs.

Someone told me i didn't treat him. So yah on tat dae i did okie. but than azri duno how to lie abit and end up he found out =(( but nvm. He wanted to pay back. but told him it was for him. Keep asking me to treat! kentot. Who's pay higher. huh?? hahaha okie. so after that went to take pics and went home wit fika. i L.O.V.E dungess!!

Me wit fika than esha. we are luv dunges

Thiss edit from esha =)

Weekends

2008-09-07T16:59:00.005+08:00

Yeah! weekends was great except todae was so boriinnggg.

i heard stories again. Ergh!! why can't it get over. is like 1 mth already.
just get it over and done wif okie.. =))

Anyway, i was around 30 min late for school. nvr did sumthing like tat bfor.
But i have been partial for lots of time. anyway, skul starting to be enjoyable.

watching freaky-z performing at trcc when is break time.

he's botak now. hahs

yadaayadaayadaa..

okie lepas itu.. in class we were taking photo an our group were like doing stoopid stuff..

i wish to go for lunch as a class. but fasting. =(

okie hope so.. soon..

pavi.hafeez.yana

Saturdaaee

Great! PMS. outside. at work - was like goin up and down..

Work was okie. As satudae was all gerl power. mcm gerek seh!!

rakinah me syakillah and ami. than this guy came. sape namer dier ehk.. iskandar.

i think so..

So, manage to clear everything and everyone was happy.

when i finish werk. i tot that i have to rush. but still waste alot of time and reach cineleisure orchard on time. hahaha

cool larr kan.. but we breakfast at 8. urgh!!

and we ran to watch them. it was raining and all of us are wet!!

their band was 1st runner up!! cool

lepak after that. hmm. n went home. ZZzzzzZZzzz

Hope tmrw gonna be fun again =))

enjoying myself! how do euu do??

2008-09-03T00:27:00.005+08:00

Will i be like tis forever, sitting and waiting for some lovely suprises to come out to me. Or just sumthing exciting happening to me. I think i can be patient.. And i must be. I just hope everthing going to be fine. i knoe i cant predict things to happen. But i just wish for the best.. life goonna be very boring when there is no up's and down's rite? =))

So.. thann.. hello!!

enjoying urself todae?? hmm.. i enjoyed myself.. with MUQSIT!! my secondary skul fren and still we meet each other after 2 years of being in different skul. So we used to go to skul together and stuff.. but after tat wan keep wanting me to get away from him which i duno why?? bcos i knoe him like 5 years. and we are very close for 2 years.. So, when we knoe we get t the same skul, we wanted to go skul with each other.. and sumtimes chill out. but ade ah org larang. And we became close again =) just wanna go shopping with euu again.. mcm gerek.. hahaha..

We buke at Pizza Hut!! yummy but after tat feel like puking. =P tu lar temahak sgt.. and after buke we wanted to digest our food we went around J8 and there is tis deal in BHG levis. so i get 1 pants and the t'shirt (t'shirt as my bthdae present from him) than he bought two pants. kie.. it cost around $159 total. and i pay him back the pants by topping up his concession for MRT! yahh.. See the picss below okie..

Meet muqsit

Waiting fer food!! hugry seh.. when i look around me it were like so tempting seh!!

Okie.. our drink came =))

And here's my food!!

Puasa =))

2008-09-01T16:01:00.006+08:00

Selamat menyambut bulan ramadhan

dan

Selamat Berpuasa!!

I wasn't blogging for the past few dae's. I were so busy preparing and trying to finish up for our rehearsal which has just past on the fridae. Thursday was fun trying to work out all the movement and the last groove for our performance. Friday, we have to reach skul so early, we thought we are gonna be the first group because they told us tat we are weak. But ended up we are the last team. yeah! So our free time was from 9 to 2. Lamer kan.. See what we were doingg..

Tis is not edited. And our camera woman which is not here ZUZU =))

The gerek people.. =)) La dunges

We were all hempap each other. But it seem like we look happy instead of in PAIN!!

So than all of us showed wat we have done to the Seniors =)) I stuck haf wae bcos of the stoppid Strap but nvm. it was all well done. Need to improved ourself more and edit here and there.. Yah!! but 530 we left skul and i was heading to town to meet galfren Liyana.. I missed her lotss. So we wanted to watch 4bia at the first place but end up we watch "death race" it was super duper gerek seh.. LOve the story line and tha action..

When on our way home.. Fai Seriously like nak step malu seh.. hmmm than nak step sek lak.. And last picture we wanna take he push me to the side so.. guess euu wont see me.. -.- And the second pic and last another half of the b.e gang came.. yeah!! so pic taken with them too!!

Niee org yang saye rindu.. Dgn yg lagy satu galfren name nye nana =)

11 sept or 20 sept. will be our outing k..

love euu baby girls

meet nana =)

That was fridae.. Sat i was working with Rakinah, Cecilia, Syakil at concession. Yeah a lil tiring on that dae.. Urgh!! And I slept at 630 toking on the phone with Zie.. And hearning Zie and safwan conv. anyway everthing is over.. Not expecting myself to turn bacck to him i guess.. Since he have mention it too in the conv. and told zie tat. Sampai mampos pon i tak akan gy ngan yana.. so yahh.. smile =) Sundae was gerek too!!! went shopping with my dearie cousin.. Naz wanted to come along but than he went out with his bro to queensway. So anyway, i bought myself 3 tops, sneakers and i loike it so much.. And a bag. which i think it is the same as yana banana. urgh! i tot she wore polka dot. but i was wrong than.. And the yana's have the same bag then. K to all muslims slmt berbuka yerr nanti.. haha =))

ffull of gerekness

2008-08-27T23:38:00.003+08:00

i still can't forget the time that we spent for each other. i hope memories just fade away. i mean all of it within me and hym. I don't feel like thinking anymore. JUst wanna be happy as much as possible. I shuld hav some fun time now. as there is alot of thing coming up and i hope if i keep occupied with things to do i would not be thinking of euu and just it will be the end of story..

Anyway, B.E. practice as usual. Every thursdae for the juniors. kinda funn larr..

Hope that everything is done especialyy to my group so we just need to polish up everything.

& i think seriously time is also needed to be sacrifies. hmm..

Anyway i love the edits from esha =))

shuld post it anyway. haha..

I miss my cousin so much.. hope tat sundae outing is comfirm..

and still nazleay wanna follow us.. nvm.. he shuld be our body guard for that daee

i love euu lahhxx cousin!!! aisyahh..

I also gonna miss E36h..

and my class currently is w14p..

wheee...

goodnite and have funn =)

Todae is a happy dae

2008-08-26T02:43:00.002+08:00

I have a funn =D
with my group La dunges.
After tat the one who turn up for finale and watching drumline as we hav done with the finale.
and than the lepak..
Lepak was kinda funn.. and they were all funny people that make us non stop laughing.
hmm.. kinda great huh! hahhaha
finale and playing with group is like a normal routine. haha.. okie someone wanna play on me and acting like a stocker.. when a guy tok to euu oh man!!! euu freak out and sae who euu are..
scared huh??
hahahaha dumb zul..
okie.. gtg yah.. ZzzzZzzzz

friday

2008-08-23T14:25:00.007+08:00

I need to work like almost every friday. However, last week was my off week. And it's superduperr BBbbooorriinnggg.. Seriously, i can''t stand it. So, i choose to work tis wk and someone told me not to work -.- but nvm i went to work already and FAROUK visited cathay =) He is still botak and getting darker. hahas. Anyway, i miss working with him. hees. I still can sleep at 5 in the morning as i was talking on the phone. Oh yah.. and luckily someone woke euu up hahaha.. binget kann but anyway I still have to get up earlier to go to work. And still.. euu ask me to accompany euu till 12 in the afternoon. i think euu can't make it too.. So, we put down the phone at 5.30.. And dun tell me i dun post anything bout euu. bcos i just did.
Anyway, tis is the picture of La dunges

Everything going to be okie

2008-08-22T01:47:00.002+08:00

Hmm.. how shuld i start. i have not been blogging for soo long.. And i got freaking lots of pics which i am very lazy to post. some other time okie peeps. anyway i change my whole blog skins bcos i feel like it realli somehow tell me i shuld move on and smile. Dun look back. everything is over. i know i still stuck somewhere although i just tell them i have move on. I hope everything goin to be okie.. Wishing euu luck for ur army and take care. =)) but i just hoping that he will make a move to start toking. bcos i cant really say any more thing. my mouth are shut right now..

However there is some lovable people out there who either giving me support or just wish for me to move on. Even there is short little msg here and there i still appreciate it so much.. Or i might be dae dreaming and not hearing ur convo. Still thanks. I am partly move on and not wanting to look backwards. Anyway, scheldue is so tight. ergh!! restless again evernthough its holidae ppl.. okie.. anyway take care aite peeps.

OH fun week

2008-08-17T20:21:00.003+08:00

hmm.. okie. i have not been updating for so long. okie..
First week of holidaes was full of FUN. except for a dae where i see him.
I didnt know that he is goin cathay. K but moving on..

Sentosa was fun..
with all the love people.
but sad i didn't go into the pool.. hmm

Barbeque i stick to nana all dae long.
Went home with fika and nana and the rest of the girls..
Okie lar.. played some game.
they were like disturbing me.. onlie 18 yr old and above can go in the lift.
But they are acctually themselves not even 18. Freak you all..

I wish i will not see hym or make him appear again in life.
I wanna move on. Not turning back at all..
Although there is no hatred goin around i am still hurt.

to late to apologize

2008-08-06T14:27:00.002+08:00

Okie shuld continue blogging..
Although everything is over and our story of "love" has ended.
I think i still can stand on my own 2 feet.

I dun need some guy like that.
OH! i knew euu have cheated on me.
but retribution is on ur way.
Allah itu adil.
so, maybe he's not for me yah..

=)

and anyway, got to have lots of fun.
tomorrow, sentosa outing.
class outing is on the way..
BE barbeque.
and shopping..
Wow... i canot wait..
I just feel like quiting. but din doesnt want me too.
he tot that i will miss him..
urgh!!! if i miss euu. i can just go to cathay wat!!

bu if any mistake tat i have done which make euu in damn bloody pain.
just to sae SORRY!!

miss home

2008-08-02T02:56:00.002+08:00

Ohh.. I heard people suffering at the other side..
pls call me.. ask me to get up at concession...
i seriously miss tat place.. =(( i wanna work there..

Anyway, afta work was fun. talking bout mak dekat kerje.
i heard she admire one of the highest authority in there.
haha.. and found out that no one want her..
oh sad.. k.. and we were like laughing away.. hehe!!! in the cab. cool!!

short and meaningful i guess

2008-08-01T13:19:00.003+08:00

i think boyfie does make me love him even more.
he really wanna make me smile like always
love to make me laugh like crazy
and trying his very best not to make me cry.

Love doesn't make the world go 'round; love is what makes the ride worthwhile

gay - ing

2008-07-25T00:57:00.004+08:00

Yadiy goin ns

colleagues in cathay

Kamillya and safwan. wher m i?

Bape byk laki lar kamillya

Blur.. in train =(

F U N i had todae, I didnt went for lunch with b.e. kinda bored huh. I wanna eat outside with my classmate. haiyaa!! acctually, I wasn't working today hmm. not in scheldue. brr.. but than i call sharuldin up and he say that hey pls come to work fast. Ok i was like rushing myself to work but end up I did nothing until it is at around 6, which is when the organiser of the event came. Oh, I shuld have come later anyway. Than boredom strike again after washing plate with Kamilyah. Urgh.. kamillya went down and me start slacking at kitchen and is like a free labour. Opps shh. dun tell anyone where i am working k. But not slacking till the max. Atleast I finish my work by washing the plate. It took less than 15 min washing all the plate. And we are supa dupa fast. As we finish washing around 20 plate by the end of 5 minute. I love my fren. Whee.. But when I get bored or where I just feel like being ignored by all the jokes i will too.

Boo!

2008-07-22T22:25:00.006+08:00

Hey, mondae was great is like finally i can meet boyfie. Seriously, i miss him lots and yesterdae gotta spent time with him at home and even at work place. i need him like lots. and not forgetting my friends to which i meet few daes ago or just. list of my frens i would want to mit.

Boyfie
Aisyah cousin

Beats Encore peeps

Liyana iwalkthecat

Farhanah beruk

Beverly crazy classmates

PeiYong she is crazy too

Some of them in E36h

My peeps in 501
cathay peeps

& i duno if i got the free time to see them. Or i duno when i am free they will be free too. Even boyfie is onlie once a week. Urghhh.. that so sucks. Niwae mondae was funn laughing at peeps. However maman keep calling me "helmet" because of my hair. We have funn gossiping at them and laughing at others. lolx. Calling merlion and porn teacher (not my class joke but b.e.) And goin to miss classmate soon. Hope they turn up for the chalet. okies =) i took lots of pics.. have fun

library, when discussion

Break time =)

Wasn't focusing during presentation

afta work. imy

Shantni dear

MAMAN!

B.E girls power

This is how nas present during presentation.. to be downgraded

nite dear. imy lots

Rest dae.

2008-07-20T21:46:00.003+08:00

i have had a long dae tis week. not so much of a rest. i was home early onlie on the thurs. urgh.. I am so tired. Anyway, people i dont speak marvelous english. hees. ok! So, went to work on friday, kinda fuck up wit yadiy and after that i didn't wanted to went down again. all bcos of that MAK BONDA. but kinda great working wit my fri and sat peeps. bcos i have to stand alone at kacang putih for 3 hour.. that is freaking boring lahx. 3 hours is like 30 hour. I seriously walk around and don care about the KAKAK PUTIH. but i will get mad if someone go and steal it or cheat and i duno why. and kacang putih is just a place for me to eat and eat.
I wanna go out again.. I miss himm seh.. i wanna have a dae out with him. I hope on the fri he will be goin. And atleast i can meet him tmrw lar tuh.. since me and him working. all thanks to sham ehk. force me to work.. anyway peeps i will link euu soon.

New short hair that naz laugh at..

Zai going malaysia and i have to replace hym. lol! so swit. haiz kacang putih..

breaking skul rules

2008-07-17T00:48:00.003+08:00

WEEEeeee!! k i didn't blog for a very long time. Skul is F U N nowadaes however i am lack of discipline in being early, coming back from break on time. Suck at it nowadays, hees. Anyway, yesterdae was GREAT. When for ut, urgh! dun ask it suck totally bt when back to skul saw tis guy i think he is a freako. Looking at me everytime. urgh! get over with ur galfren kay. I have mine okay even to my bloody faisal!! who keep disturbing me. hees. Ok than when to town, wanted to get a bag but think for 25 min. and say no i am not getting it. I think boifren kinda pissed off. Went to catch a movie and OHhh!! it suck totally, i was sleeping in the theatre, I watch the first part, doesnt seem to like it or i really need sum rest which i cant figure out. but sleep at the ending and DID NOT CONCENTRATE so dun ask about Hell Boy 2. Than met afiq and we were like playing cs turn by turn at starbuck and afiq laughter was like oh my, drop my water face seh

K wan sae who lose need to be tickle alive. So he loose. hees. who asked you to create such stoopid thung dumbo. hehee. Than lepak and went back. It was midnight by than. hees.

B.E. for today is fun and cool

=) love euu people.
good night sweet heart!!

F U N

2008-07-11T00:56:00.004+08:00

Skul was bored as usual. Watch performance at south agora. Went up to class again start on ppt.
Not enjoying any leisure. Even for an ice cream =( but when finished skul. Went out with boifren. Someone look so shy to talk to me. hehehe.

anyway outing was F U N!!!

Movie wanted was abit lame.

neneh pok

2008-07-08T21:04:00.005+08:00

I went out yesterday it was superduper gerek larr. I really miss him siaa.
however he is sick. luckily i dun get his sickness..
i quarrel with him previously, and i do not want to continue.
just get it over.
i just want to let everything be in the good away. although i sacrifies.
must not be towards him oso.i sacrifies for sumone else too..
Done nothing much today, lunch was with b.e. peeps again. i grab some pics which i snap without telling them. hees. it was dun goin lunch with them. and talking about the previous day. Seriously, K E C O H sia. hees.
Hmm, anyway my fren find herself in a bad state. I know how u feel be strong okay, ignore whaat they have to say. No use thinking about it, just a waste of ur time. You still have others which you can rely on why bother anyway.
Lastly, i canot wait for tmrw. its beats encore. KNOW MORE PEOPLE MEANS IT'S NOT GOING TO BE BOOOOooRIiiinnggg.
hees.

I went out yesterday it was superduper gerek larr. I really miss him siaa.

however he is sick. luckily i dun get his sickness..

i quarrel with him previously, and i do not want to continue.

just get it over.

i just want to let everything be in the good away. although i sacrifies.

must not be towards him oso.i sacrifies for sumone else too..

Done nothing much today, lunch was with b.e. peeps again. i grab some pics which i snap without telling them. hees. it was dun goin lunch with them. and talking about the previous day. Seriously, K E C O H sia. hees.

Hmm, anyway my fren find herself in a bad state. I know how u feel be strong okay, ignore whaat they have to say. No use thinking about it, just a waste of ur time. You still have others which you can rely on why bother anyway.

Lastly, i canot wait for tmrw. its beats encore. KNOW MORE PEOPLE MEANS IT'S NOT GOING TO BE BOOOOooRIiiinnggg.

hees.

sentosa

2008-07-05T23:32:00.005+08:00

tell me when euu walk down the street and being happy to the max!!
i got a great fun todae. =) missing hym damn badly.
and tell me when euu walk and seeing people smiling at eu..
Oh. i went in the MRT the ang mo smile at me. asking wher i bought the slipper.
Than Sentosa was no disturbance as it was just the two of us!!
When i went home, wan was talking bout hair and showing the picture.
The 3 chinese lady look as us and than she smile..
so paisey lar.. but i have fun. and enjoying myself with some wrestling with him.
hehe

his the superman!!!

Yana kenet

On the way home =)
front ugly, back preety

have a nice day everyone

rest well on the weekend.

loves!!

Feeling sad and happy

2008-07-04T13:40:00.004+08:00

i cnt recall it. all swit memories its gone from me.
I knoe i have been shooting him if i get angry and not realising my own mistakes too.
However, i try my best but there is something tat i hate and like. just dont do sumthing that i hate infront of me.. others may not mind but i mind seriously so if euu wanna talk crap bout any other people tis and that way. I am not THEM, i am who i am. i knoe i am very frustrated. if euu care euu cn just log on to messenger in the net. chat wif me. i knoe euu lied when euu say there is internet only at the neighbour room. so euu can use ur damn bloody frendster giving people comment and giving comment and change background. euu cant get urself online and chat wif me for a single min.. now, euu are asking me what is his own a/c.. euu cnt remember sumthing that both of us have. I already get angy once euu want to tell me to angry twice??

Okay, anyone want to call me childish for tis.
go ahead. i dont give a fucking care..
if euu are in my situation euu would understand.
SERIOUSLY.. if euu do not care about ur love once than dun comment bout it.
However, i need some explanation from him also.
done wit euu..

And now joyhann..
haha.. i keep disturbing him since he is in the class.
i dunno if he gets angry wif me.. =)
but seriously i am not angry i just play around.. hahaha

and Beats encore people.. pls stp thinking i am fierce..
hehehe.. i am not. i may look but seriously i am not..
i onlie love to play around.. hees!!
Movie was fun yesterdae. Faiz is so funny, i cnt stop laughing.
not i laugh because the show is funny but because of him.
oh, i went wit maman zuzu fika esha =)) they are love people..
all of them.. i disturb fika bfor..
not on esha i think she's fierce. hehehe..
but she's nice and look fierce. so conclusion? i not sure.

see some pics.. FAROUK goin ns

bad dayy

2008-07-03T22:41:00.003+08:00

i miss someone badly.
i wish for someone to be here.
i need him to talk to
alot of thing that u are missing bout me
i seriously nd euu badly
is nvr the same wit anyone else around.

i have a bad day todae =...(
seeing everything update except me.

let it out to you

2008-07-01T22:42:00.003+08:00

I am back.. hees.. todae when to lepak with ABG maman and KAK nana.. hehe
They are my frens acctuali. Nice meeting them... Just tag it tis way to disturb them. hees. Niwae they are my beats encore mates.. wednesday training?? shuld i be hapie or neutral? heehehe.. Aniwae, just wishing for him to online. But i think he will onlie contact me when he is safely and soundly home. urghh!!! i miss him badly, he promise he will call when he is there but ermm.. no calls hehe and btw, his carelessness. lost his phone & wallet.. =((

I am close to sumone, however, there is someone too who is close with her/him. So i give that person the space to be happie. But something i di not understand is tat why does there a need to say something sarcastic. Is my buisness for who i wanna be with and who i wanna be with as my fren. Is not like i stealing ur boifrend or sumthing rite. i have mine, why shud i give a bloody damn care for making euu all apart, even if euu admire the person. i knoe people make sum kind of assumption but i was just talking as a fren2 tok. Asking bout and interact? so euu mean i cant do tis as a fren2 thing?

2008-06-30T13:58:00.004+08:00

i duno what i have fault to her.. As she have to look at me every single second. but nvm. not interested. B.e. yesterday was fun.. But the most gerek thingy that i have done is going shopping with wan.. hees.. get a bag and a hoddie.. cool. love my hoodie and bag too.. Aniway, goin to miss him.. =(( malaysia here he comes.. leaving liyana at singapore. lolx.. but nvm.. Had a great dae.. Stoopid wady.. ehehehe hes so freaking funnie i laugh and laugh.. But that day the top i bought was suck.. i look like an Ultraman, it sucks.. i wanna get sumore tops.. wanna see pics of me and peeps. =))

After work.. out!!

Farouk, wee goin to miss euu!!

anyway, farouk goin off.. the best dae in cathay sia.. see how we behave. but it's onlie for that day.. Last hugg from rouk. to me and renee.. (safwan dont jealous). goodbye to him as he is goin off to ns.. haha. but is onlie ns.. is not like migrate or something. hahas.. but i really love it.. i really goin to miss his irritating attitude.. he make me laugh but he knoe how to treat people nice =) niwae, good luck ns boyy!!

Love So Sweet

2008-06-27T15:29:00.004+08:00

By Jessica Kae Teal

You woke me from my sleep

and drenched my heart with a love so deep.

When I look into your eyes

I see my reflection,

my feelings for you I do not despise.

You treat me like the princess that I should be

by pouring your sweet and sensual love all over me.

When I see you bitting your lip and anxiously trying to kiss me,

I debate in my mind whether or not I should let you taste me.

You stand there all quiet with your sexy body,

and I think in my mind, "Oh, my gosh, what a hottie."

When I hear you speak, all your beautiful voice doesis make me weak.

I love you for this and

I love you for that,

but you love me for everything and that.

I really treasure euu for everything that euu have done to me. although sometimes it hurts, i promise myself to go thru thick and thin together with euu. Although I make something like world on my own and i realise that it is the most selfish thing that i have done. Thinking of myself and not about euu. I know euu are angry thinking how not to make me into frustation but i ignore. I am sorrie in a way, I realise my mistake however, sometimes i just control myself. But without ur presence I really feel that I am lonely, just want euu by my side.Just missing euu trucks lots!! =))

tiredd

2008-06-26T19:07:00.003+08:00

i was so restless. I really need a slip. I wish my holiday was longer. ATLEAST i can rest more. Anyway, I spent my day with him yesterday. I was so lovely of him.. I wanted to have someone like "him" so much. I meant it. he's such a special one for me. I can go crazy without him. I am sure of it. He put so much care for me. i knoe he doesnt want to let me go sometimes as he is really concern of me. However, I want a lil bit of freedom too. But i was stoopid to quarel with you. Last week I quarrel with you too often. This week was such a better one. I really gonna miss euu crazy when you are in kl. Hope you'll have enjoyment time with abg halil(hees) and suherman. okies.. i wan my kl drift i wanna watch it. i hope the show is going to be as great as mat remp-it. Wohoo!! anyway, take care urself when you go there. I will sent you off on mondae, but arent sure and comfirm sunday will be with your family. =)

monday blue

2008-06-23T13:54:00.004+08:00

oh.. monday blue. it suck! i feel like not coming to skul sia but ltr i need to see boi =) so, i must go to skul just to see him.. anyway pic from chalet. i will be back later alright with more post.

tired & fun

2008-06-21T23:52:00.005+08:00

Wow, i hv not been updating yah. but anyway it was fun todae and yesterday. Spending QUALITY time with the one we love. Boi did come & 1 of my friend which is also his fren :) it was totally just FUN. i love it. Atfirst my boi and fren didnt click with cousin fren. They just stick with both of them and my bro. Till it was like late at night. WOhoo!! However, when cousin and frend were slacking outside. Fairzul(my ex) wave straight right up into my face & say hello. But I just smile and sae hello. So i just knoe i am the one who end the relationship for both of euu?? and what the hell for i do tat. if euu are making me feel like a shit and saying bout my family. Aisyah is also part of it okie. thanks for saying that anyway. appreciate it. hehe.

Soo. okie i endure my way through. I reach at 9. Than i slept at 5am in the morning. Oh no.. it's so sickening.. Staying through with boi and ffren chatting away. Bbq in the middle of 2 to 3 am chat with ais, danial, karim and boi. Oh!! fun..So after eating, went to slip. Wake up at 9 and go to the pool. WOW!!! its nice. now there is my cuzz all. okie. And went to slip. me ayu and ais was at katil than it switch. after 3 hour of slipping. boi in a bed, than me in another, karim and fren at the floor. hees..

Okie, i find that my family was okie with him. He was very nice to my mother. Making them feeling comfortable talking too. Helping my mum up when need to. Even fren did help. Oh. I realli love boi and adik okie =) (fren is my god brother). Abah was starting his nonsense talking rubish. Making us laugh evan adik and boi was there. Oh syg. hope they will approve us together. And for adik, we have fun disturbing euu as pak tempek.. hhehe

Let me show what i can grab. will grab summore soon.

502 roXx

2008-06-19T22:21:00.009+08:00

Oh mum. I am so can't wait for tmrw. YEAH! tonning with some frens and just slack around as much as i can. My love msg me tis morning just to say sorry. But is okie I am the best who doesn't turn up yesterday. Getting bored with school most probably. However, I miss my 502 like so bloody much lar.. US always slacking in class, not only that. I brought some "sour plumm" to school and everyone we thinking I am weird. I really cannot stay focused i class.Oh BEV!! telling me her story her bigg love story. She loves ponn school. Me, were always being drag by them. haha asking me to go out. Than we went to study together till late. I love the memories it is soo fun.. Making funn of nina. OH2 that was last tyme. I wasnt the one but gerald.. Taking pics with that peiyong.. Hey!!! i nd to give the class a big hugg man. Although i was th onlie malay, I didnt really feel left out at all.. They were really bring me in the class.. Not forgettting bao guang, gerald, ANDY(buddy). agness.. ergh.. i duno wat memories.. but we always tok about sumone.. not me and her.. is us!! bev,me,Agnes, pei2. I remember on my bthday, giving me the bigg!!! winnie the pooh.. oh no..!! pls i nd outing..

A boring one

2008-06-17T22:03:00.003+08:00

Hmm, it was so boring today, seriously. I didn't know why, but sometimes i feel like running away hiding behind those forest, left unseen. I feel like i don't have the right to have the say. Everything left unspoken, it shut's me up. I want to tell him something badly, as I keep hurting myself everyday. I was really happy whenever I am with him. However something I just have to follow what he have to say. Sometimes he told me it was a joke but I think he talk to me in a serious way. But me, I am not that strong, i am so sensitive to his words. Urgh. Nvr I told him, Since I am to lazy to write a note and I am afrraid you will say about me, and giving me your advice. Just wanna let you know that sometimes i have to go along with your ways which i don't like.i don't want to let it out to you. Hope you will read my blog. pls understand! I really misses the you that i used to knoe. He's so nice, so caring and loving towards me. I really miss him.

first day of skul

2008-06-16T18:08:00.003+08:00

Ergh, the subject wasn't that difficult. However, I am demoralise with my grade seriously. hehe. But hope my other 3 ut is done well okie.. =) So, tis mark is not going to be in at all!! YEAH!!! Aniway, I went galare for break. but i didn't eat just had some mineral water. That's all. After I went galare I still have the time to go to play CABAL!! hehes.. it's preety boring today.
Didn't have the chance to grab pics.. but I grab some pics before my term break.. Oh, I wont meet boifren for 4 days.

tis was yesterday

in shantni blog

tis is today.. yummy nas ice cream

hair cut..

2008-06-15T21:09:00.002+08:00

hmm.. i tink i look preety funni with my hair cut. however, muqsit say it is okie.. The hairdresser doesn't want to make money by rebonding my hair. She say i will regret, but truthfully she earn alot from me. I went to her saloon almost every month. just to get my hair layered. Okie but my hair is normal just tat i use straightener. I mean the hairdresser. Or not i going to waste my 90 buck for rebonding. end up i onlie pay $8 for the haircut.. =) save my other $82 hehe.
Okie i hope my blog is not dead once i start school. I gonna take pics when i am in school too. hope soo..
I want to start playing games so it is not so boring staying at hm. nothing to do. Seriously, i am bored siak.. tmrw skul.. i hate it.. hehe =)

Sign of breakups. PRAY its not

2008-06-15T00:03:00.005+08:00

Oh!! BOYFREND its misses

Hmm, everything was going fine at first. I went to support sharuldin band. I was a great performance though. Sharuldin is the soft ball. Oh, I dun have his picture but I will soon put it up to show my peeps out there. I went to see his performance and went to watch Kung fu Panda.. HAHA!! It was a funny; this show is a thumb up. So, after the performance and panda I went slacking with Shahul. Oh no, he told us so much bout ns. I like urgh!! I won’t meet him often anymore. I really going to miss him..

Ok.. the last part of the day was full of frustration for me. I wanted to ignore him awhile. So I did not talk a single word in the train. Even outside and then I told him I want to go home. I wanna set my mind free. Not to think about it.. he grab me tightly and I cant let him go. I say just let me go, I wanna go home. Without thinking much of consequences I went off. He threw the ring and I heard the sound. However,I didn’t bother just to go off. And what’s next???
Does he pick it up and get me.
Does he ignore both board the train. Msg me at night.
Me first, than the ring
Pick the ring up and go off?
Wanna know the answer, ask me personally?

some pics with my colleagues..

Me and hubby.. today!!

i look abit ugly. ergh!! haha

Ignore me now.

2008-06-14T00:02:00.002+08:00

ergh. so sick.. sick of being at hm.. i understand..
her feelings too.. but she just cant be patient and pressure people.I feel like saying hey i understand i will do it. but just not to keep her hurt in even a single way,i try and try to stick to her "say". Yah, i will better do it now than its late to be sorry. I heard another fren of mine story until she say her mum fainted because she scolded her back. but watever it is. i cant tell why my mum is acting that way, there is a reason. and i totally understand it but i cant take it.

Niwae, i do care about my boifren, since he was not cooperative enough i am partly goin to let him free.. ergh, enough of it. i dun wanna quarrel. like wat irwan say. Just make him happy, if he think wat he do does make him happy than let him be. he is also going in a few mth later. let him enjoy.. k.. but bfor he is in. i REALLY goin to miss him like hell. i promise to wait.. just wished he stop smoking. TeEhEe. anyway, i still hate it whenever he wont listen. but i oso do rebel. haiyaa.. good for me.

Ohhh.. Kamillyah i know ur secret. its cute =)haha

There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved.

SOo much fun

2008-06-13T00:31:00.002+08:00

todae was a tiring dae. reason was hearing her giving me names and the best thing was SHOPPING.. hees..
Haha. Euu giving ppl names and making bout assumption can, calling sundal and all sort. but we make assumption euu make the big fuss on it.. hello it a small thing larr. euu can just support urself wat. why must criticise others just like that and euu aare oso making sum stoopid assumption anyway. oh fark did i say any bad things bout her.. i dun care anymore.. I dun wanna get anyone and all into trouble just by clearing it up.and it get worst and being given names, so why shuld i have the respect on euu anymore BITCH!! ok dun wanna tok about herr.. let it stop where it is okie.

Anyway.. shopping!! wow its havent sia.. thanks to maklong.. hehe.. have the share.. top up for wan okie.. and almost all for me.. yah and for aisyah present.. oh if euu read tis.. dun even care to know what the hell is tis.. cause i wont tell..hehehe.. blueckss.. I buy hehehe.. wallet, shoe(for work) and skirt. okie it was branded. but manage to get it cheaper =) and dont be my boifren saying its 5 buck.. i swear i gonna pinch ur nipple like how he gets it almost everytime i meet.

BOIFREN2.. his precious okie.. most precious one. most lovable guy. Pouring will all the love. waiting for him every single dae is not a chores but it is the most interesting part.. e give me lots of suprises.. from he himself to his words, to his action, and watever he do for me.. so if ZUL ask me when i wanna break up in my heart i will just say "never" okie.. =) but not to zul.. he will go on non stop toking.. urgh!!! yana dunn wanna hear euu speak.. but i respect euu as euu understand my well being now.. i hope nothing is to late for her. and everything is okie alright. sorie to hear it from euu.. it was sad and it is still sad. just pray for her. Ok back to him. wat other good thing shuld i say.. i told alot.. how i get him as my boifren.. that was a stupid story.. it is bcos of tis one day that i urgently need a toilet. SERIOUSLY, bcos of that i know him.. and bcos partly, of the lift... oh no, my action was stoopid.. dun wanna tok about it larr.. SHhyy euu knoe.. anyway, skool is next wk.. FARKKk!!! i want summore hols. plsss...

Misses hym

2008-06-09T20:09:00.004+08:00

Peeps.. hees..
he took back his psp.
okie, i was freaking busy for the past week..
not doing fine at all. yesterday was all suck! sundae closing me and syakil.
And ignoring him larr.. he tot i was in a bad state but seriously i was just damn tired.

Making myself happie today, i spent 23 bucks.. but i know i will have long time fun with it..
Membership for some facial thingy, seriously i need it.. urgh!!!
Ok. imy larr.. I cannot talk to him, see him and even can read his reply. duhh!!
that's soo shit.. I wanna c him tmrw.
have funn =)
And watch sex and the city maybe mit waty and the guy too..

My 6 mth was a wonderful one.. he give me suprise at 11 after our anni.
He spent alot for me. I have to repay him. hmm..

Terrible yesterday, Natural today

2008-05-27T22:42:00.003+08:00

Anyway, my first time blogging. Oh yah, after having a blog than i will be a babi. just a pure lazy person and stop watever i am doing. Anyway, I had a bad day yesterday, but thanks to abel to make me dance dangdut but for rihanna music. It make my day. But I had some difficulties concentrating afterwards. Due to some technical fault. I should not revealed what is happening. Sometimes people told me it truth. However sometimes I just can't take it. it feel like cherry just slaughter my heart into half. I cannot take it. It is so tacit to tell it to you how i feel. erghh!! I know he feel some kind of irritated for me to naggg at him.. And he have take in all my words.. UrGhhh.. I understand how hard is it. But I cant control sumtimes.. I just felt like flare it out.

Yah, he again 'pujuk' me.. cooling me down dont wanna let my feeling get hurt although he ended up scolding me. but is okie.. missquizie. I am Cool.. hehes. And today, oh yahh trying to be a good girlfren calling hym up.. Saying, hello time to wake up.. But just too bad he have insufficient cash in his handphone.. And both of us dying to get our pay. I donch know how long can tis last. But I just wish that my relationship is going to be forever. lyke seriously larr.. Is not that I wanna dream or enjoy ahh.. but just plan for my future. So i wont be left behind rite.. Todae was an okie day for me.. although cherry isn't there but he make me quiet just by throwing me something. hehes his psp.. i kept on playing just go to one corner leave everything at the side.. is like priorities sia.. kie.. but he did msg me larr. the onlie thing is i cant make a call. Ohh. yah Cherry pls spent ur time wisely enjoy urself and do watever euu want bfor euu going in. Wanna some cherry or tarzan?? hees

Euu are mad isit?? bcos i ignore the cam

my tarzan hero

the happy us